I’m only 22. “Only”. People keep saying I’m young and should enjoy it, but I don’t feel it. I’m not saying I’m not enjoying life, I am (probably too much so sometimes). I just don’t feel the young part. For some reason I feel like it’s time to get going and find myself in this world. It’s time to find the places I want to go, start the projects I want to one day complete, and find the people I want to do it all with.
I guess to sum it all up, I want to settle into my life. Although settle is probably the wrong word. To the contrary, I want to break out of this youth thing and Really live. I want to continue my self education, make money, create a business, write a lot, travel, help others, etc. That’s my definition of settling down/breaking out. And more important than any of that, I want to find love and start a family. For some reason I feel like that’s the hardest part. The first things I mentioned will come easy. But the love part; I think it seems harder because it’s the thing I want to find the most. I’ll only be truly happy to succeed in life if I can share my goals with someone, and have someone share their goals with me. As they always say it’s not the final success that truly matters, it’s the journey along the way. I don’t want to go on my journey alone. I want to spend this life working hard and helping others, but I truly want to devote myself to someone who will help others with me.
Like I said, people say I’m to young to think about this stuff. But I do. For whatever reason it’s what’s on my mind all the time lately. I don’t feel young, I feel like I should be moving on with life. I’m enjoying my life but I know there is so much in front of me that I would enjoy so much more… Why can’t it start now? And why can’t I find that perfect woman? I could walk into that person tomorrow or I could already know them. Who knows?
I’m “young”, and it takes time…